Working too hard, working too many night shifts. Saying "Yes" to everyone at work.
I've let my time and energy get spread so thin at work that I'm not being the parent I want to be.
Yesterday morning, I came home from my 8th night shift in the fortnight to find Miss 9 sitting at the table eating breakfast.
Her hair was fuzzy, fresh from bed. She had just pulled it back in a hairband without brushing it.
I was tired, so tired. I just wanted to fall into bed.
I didn't say hello, or kiss her good morning.
I grabbed a hair brush and BRUSHED that hair, quickly, careless of knots that pulled at her little head. She just sat there quietly while her head got yanked around and I made it neat.
I didn't kiss my husband "hello". I didn't cuddle my dog. I didn't tell my kids to have a good day, or that I loved them as they walked out the door to school.
I haven't blogged in 3 weeks, even though I love it, I haven't seen my friends for ages. I haven't returned phone calls ( or library books) and I haven't cooked properly for days
I am out of balance.
I cancelled last nights shift.
I have given myself a few days off.
I need to set some rules that I stick to, so that I can be the Mum I want to be.
How do you keep the work/family balance?